Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Poem post



Explorations to-
For a lack of a better word-
Unknown to ones mind
Leaves no stretch to be desired.
Nothing here is to be normal:
The wooden table
Through its endless circular
Dimension. Trembles…
As if a waking frontier
In a mother bear’s dark den.
The exit lights up;
Breaking through the dark of night.
The sprinting- Burning-
Shakes as he breaks for it:
“A few more steps; A few more”.
The flames do dies down
After the end of the night.
The bear awakens
In the wars dank aftermath
And marches on for her cub.
Marching; marching; March
The days pass onwards to months.
The leaves keep falling
As if nothing happened
And is fine in the world.
It is in regards
To matters of peace and war.
Love? In days dark dies
Like the rest which bears cherished;
Like the rest which man forget.
The collapsing cloud
Spread across the landing point.
Forever hungry
Its stomach growled and roared and
Ate. Its stomach roared and ate.
The burning man turns
A cold finger to walkers.
The sensational timing
Which man often do brag of
Does sting; Especially now.
The arrhythmic beat
Surrounds the aura of wood.
The throbbing hands land
Creating a deafening
For all the forest ears.
The lonely bear: Lost
In a search for those long gone.
The sound; attractive.
So the bear marches onwards
To find a wooden table.
All that is left now
Is a circular tree stump.
A sickening cry
Of mourning emerges and
The last piece of hope is gone.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Now its Time to Get Back to Work

Dear Readers,

OK, so now that I have nothing else to complain about its time for me to start actually posting work. Here is an introduction chapter I wrote last night:


You are floating, almost as if invisible hands have grabbed you and are carrying you to some unknown location. You can see nothing but the darkness around you but you can still hear. What you hear is your mother slowly assembling your brothers and sisters and you wonder if they too can hear what you hear.

Slowly you begin to hear something else, soft at first and then louder. It is impossible to make out what they are saying but from the tone of their voices you can tell one is angry and one is desperate. It sounds almost as if the angry voice sees this discussion as a waste of time while there is an urgency in the other voice; as if this is the most important topic in the world.

Then the angry voice says the first word that you can make out. Computer. You wonder as to whether or not you are this computer and regardless what a computer is. You begin to wonder many things like how a computer could cause such anger in a person and such urgency in another. Finally the angry voice barks something and the urgent one stops speaking.

You feel yourself flying and then you feel a sudden stop. You hear the urgent voice speaking in a sad tone I'm sorry. You aren't sure what those words mean but from the way they are said you assume that it is something bad. You hear a slow creaking and you feel something slipping on your underside.

For a brief moment you feel nothing. You are in a free fall for all of three seconds until a you feel a strong grip on your side suddenly stopping your fall. You feel a roughness rolling around your top side and then suddenly there is a rushed flight. Your flight ends and you feel a rough substance on your underside.

You hear what sounds like a door closing and a roll of tape unrolling and tearing. The last thing you hear is Go live from an optimistic voice that sounds similar to the desperate and sad one before. The only thing you can think now is the word live. It is all you want. To live.

Any thoughts?

Mike Hand

Sunday, September 16, 2012

The Self Deprecating Pattern I See in Myself

Dear readers,

Today I noticed a recurring thing in all the art I do while doing my homework for a basic drawing class. That is that I am incredibly self deprecating on myself. Of course the problem with this is that it seems like people misjudge me based on that alone. I almost want to grab them and scream at them "I am not depressed!" but enough people have that in their heads that it doesn't help.

So I play every thing I write as a character but people seem to miss some of the points of that and think that I myself am still speaking. Or even worse, they honestly believe that the situation a character was in is meant as a screw you to them. I'll be honest, sometimes it is but most times its a logical continuation of a plot.

What brought this up was that I was doing my self portraits and the two points of myself that I emphasized were my uni brow and scar aka the two most unattractive features on my face. If I see myself as being that ugly then what does that say about me as a person?

Perhaps volumes,

Mike Hand

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Open Mic

Dear readers,

Today was the first open mic event of the year at college. I had the honor of being the first reader at the first open mic event of my time at college. I think I did well; there was enough applause when I was done, people told me I did well and a person for the schools newspaper took a quote from me.

However, now that I know what the crowd is receptive to I can start making things really good for them. Also if any one was wondering I read all 20 tanka from the zine to them.

Thank you for reading,

Mike Hand

Monday, September 3, 2012

Purchase

Dear readers,

I would like to report that I am now safely at college. Specifically Purchase College and my classes start tomorrow. Of course all I have tomorrow is a philosophy class which has to do with happiness and film so hopefully that will be good.

Of course, I have started to fall into a place here. More importantly I've met a few writers and I've been stealing ideas off them. OK, so I only stole one so far which I just wrote. Its a murder mystery that was birthed from the question "what if the shark from Jaws was a goldfish?". Its gotten a bit changed for me because I've been watching too much Marble Hornets and playing too much Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney.

Other wise I'm at a near loss for words, I saw an hawk land on a car this morning and it was beautiful. I ran into some one who I swear I know and she swears she knows me although neither of us have any idea how. My semi acoustic bass and harmonica combo seems to be serving me well enough, switching between the two when needed.

In short, I think I'm going to like this place.

Thank you for reading,

Mike Hand

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Dear readers,

I now prepare to leave from this area and with that, my summer will close and my school year shall begin. I can't say I actually got much done this summer so I'll have to step up during the year and get a ton of stuff done. Right now I'm trying to get back into the groove of bass playing and I picked myself up a new harmonica to replace the one that disappeared on me.

Otherwise, I now work towards trying to figure out exactly what I should do. I could work on a large poem, work on one of two novel ideas I had, making more tanka or focus more on my musical skills. OK, I think no matter what the music will become a side salad but in the meantime, this is what I'm trying to figure out for myself.

Thank you for reading,

Mike Hand

Monday, August 20, 2012

Play done

Dear readers,

I believe it only appropriate that we take a moment of silence on all the files on my old laptop. I got a new one recently and the old one had all of its files erased when we gave it to my sister. They shall be sorely missed.

Other wise South Pacific has closed for myself. It has been an interesting journey full of fun, mischief and plenty of raw stupidity but alas it has come to an end. I've seen some people who look like they have... promise and one person I regularly tried to convert into a congress kid. I hope she takes the tip as I think the organization would suit her.

Although there is also some celebration with this new laptop. It is far faster, far more advanced and with much better battery life then my old laptop. The only down side is that I lost all the files I had to upload to the Youtube account. That may be a good thing, I got tired of doing the same old stuff so maybe it is time to do something different.

On top of that I re did the first chapter of the novel and made it a page long instead of half a page long (I know its pathetic but I needed something to work off of and I expect to return to it) and I had another idea for a novel. I'm going to have to put that aside until this one is done.

Hoping summer has been well,

Mike Hand